Yesterday morning I was reading Psalm 91...It reminded me of Gods endless faithfulness to me.
God used that chapter to impact my life hugely.
A couple years ago a man broke into our home.
Dad was on a business trip... mom "happened" to hear our dog's tail wagging (That is some watch dog!) and thought she needed out.
Seeing a man climbing through our window wasn't what she was expecting to see..
She screamed at him with a voice that gives me goose-bumps to remember... With his back still to her, he left.
It sounds simple.. But it absolutely terrified me..
The boys found it exciting to have all of those police men at our house and having a story to tell... the girls dealt with it in stride..
I panicked.
Although I had always been a wimp, this took me into a different category.
For months after, I was scared of ...everything.
The devil had seen my weak spot and pounced on it..
My dad saw what was happening to me...
He challenged me to memorize Psalm 91.
I did..
Slowly, the verses became engraved in my mind. When fear would come over me... I was reminded, "He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust"
I began to see the Lord as my refuge and fortress.
That chapter along with the grace of God, and the loving counsel of my dad, changed me..
I realized that my fear was saying that I didn't believe God was in control.
I was acting as though I wasn't the beloved child of the God of the universe..
I can't say that I am brave now... I'm still a wimp.
But I am stronger now because of that weak time..
I have confidence that the Lord has a plan for my life... nothing happens without Him knowing about it!
I am so thankful that God doesn't give up on me!
Psalm 91
1He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.
3Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
4He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.
5Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
6Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
7A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
8Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
9Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
10There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
11For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
12They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.
13Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
14Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.
15He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.
16With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.
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ReplyDeleteThat is beautiful! I was very, very fearful as a child, and feel that God delivered me from that fear. When I became a mom I started to struggle with it again. After having two miscarriages, I really gave in to fear, but God has helped me to not be overcome by it.
ReplyDeleteHope you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
that would be scary! i can relate to the fear. I used to have an awful time with fear. Ps. 91 was a huge help to me. along with God's goodness in showing me fear as a sin. I , too, can still feel it trying to grip me sometimes when I hear a "bump in the night" . :) But God is Bigger!!:)
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